eternalspawn

After looking at my LJ I noted that it had been exactly one year and ten days since I had last posted. This led me to decide that I should update, and I know that I always attempt to start updating LJ on a regular basis and never follow through, so I'll make no false promises. I'll update my Live Journal when I feel like it, and there is a distinct possibility, according to my current feelings, that updating my live journal will become a more common occurrence.

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Looking at this entire entry I don't know why I went into such detail, since I'm fairly certain the few people who can read this, don't really have any true urge to read it all, and might only out of passing boredom. But I do enjoy having records for myself to stumble across later and spark thought, so I guess this could be as much for myself as for anyone else.

I don't have connection to the internet at my house right now, my PC is out of service until I can get around to fixing it, so, i'm SOL for a while, I can't access my MySpace at my mom's/my work, where I am right now, so... if you don't see me online, thats probably why.

I think i've finally figured it out... I don't have any form of addiction to smoking, I have an addiction to the thinking I do while I smoke... the chemical reaction/high is nice, but I really enjoy the break where I do nothing but think/talk depending on if i'm with people or alone... its different then every other time that I just think for some reason... I know that most of you will have absolutely no idea what i'm talking about, and I honestly don't give a shit. This is more of a record of clarification for myself. <3's and all that shit.

P.S. I also notice that on average, when posting on LJ/Myspace or anywhere else like this, I start out making a point, and feeling good that i'm making that point/rant, but then part way through I lose interested and end up frustrated knowing that at least one person will walk away from this not understanding what i'm trying to say... in person I can handle that and fix it, but through this medium... it is my bane.

Thats the noise I want to make right now... way to much stuff to do for my finals and stuff... but once its done, yay! Fun time! I feel like I should not use big words or anything intellectually in any way, so that I can use what little of my brain that is left for school... that enough.

Guess what!? I EXIST!!! Kinda... Anyways, i'm gonna try and start keeping up on my LJ... I check myspace quite a bit, but LJ seems to have fallen out of my scope... So, i'll try and post something deep soon. :O

1.) Copy and paste this into your journal:
<*font color="yourusername"> <*b>yourusername<*/b> <*/font>
2.) Eliminate the asterisks.
2 1/2.) Replace "yourusername" with your user name.
3.) See what color you are.

Eternalspawn

Confessions of a Dangerous Mind:

Chuck Barris:

I came up with a new game-show idea recently. It's called The Old Game. You got three old guys with loaded guns onstage. They look back at their lives, see who they were, what they accomplished, how close they came to realizing their dreams. The winner is the one who doesn't blow his brains out. He gets a refrigerator.

So... something really interesting happend... and I remember "I should post in my LJ, as this is the kind of thing that one postes in the LJ about" but not in a bad way... like a "HEY GUSY!!! GUESS WHAT! " kind of way... oh well, it shall come to me.

p.s. STM = Short Term Memory

P.s.s. See, I do post in my LJ, Selphie

Man In Black Lyrics

Well, you wonder why I always dress in black,
Why you never see bright colors on my back,
And why does my appearance seem to have a somber tone.
Well, there's a reason for the things that I have on.

I wear the black for the poor and the beaten down,
Livin' in the hopeless, hungry side of town,
I wear it for the prisoner who has long paid for his crime,
But is there because he's a victim of the times.

I wear the black for those who never read,
Or listened to the words that Jesus said,
About the road to happiness through love and charity,
Why, you'd think He's talking straight to you and me.

Well, we're doin' mighty fine, I do suppose,
In our streak of lightnin' cars and fancy clothes,
But just so we're reminded of the ones who are held back,
Up front there ought 'a be a Man In Black.

I wear it for the sick and lonely old,
For the reckless ones whose bad trip left them cold,
I wear the black in mournin' for the lives that could have been,
Each week we lose a hundred fine young men.

And, I wear it for the thousands who have died,
Believen' that the Lord was on their side,
I wear it for another hundred thousand who have died,
Believen' that we all were on their side.

Well, there's things that never will be right I know,
And things need changin' everywhere you go,
But 'til we start to make a move to make a few things right,
You'll never see me wear a suit of white.

Ah, I'd love to wear a rainbow every day,
And tell the world that everything's OK,
But I'll try to carry off a little darkness on my back,
'Till things are brighter, I'm the Man In Black.

Is it so bad, then, to be misunderstood? Pythagoras was misunderstood, and Socrates, and Jesus, and Luther, and Copernicus, and Galileo, and Newton, and every pure and wise spirit that ever took flesh. To be great is to be misunderstood.

I fucking give up. I can't believe he would do that to me... What a bitch. Its not that I give a shit about her, I wish I could say that I did, but I don't... But its the fact that he would do it... god, fuck him. I can't believe he honestly believes that he is going to be fine comming out of this... I've lived the lifestyle he is now, i've had friends go as far, if not farther, into it than he is, and it never ends well... GOD DAMNIT!

P.S.

I'm not going to graduate!!! YAY!!! Working my ass off on a college lit course, hoping I can finish it in 5 days...

Phase one of prodject Barrus Graduation is compleate, I finished the first part of the IB History HL test! Just have to take the second part of it tomarrow morining (it was about 4 hrs long today, and its only supposed to be 2.5... WTF, hopefully its not that off tomorrow... )

Barrus is posting in his LJ? LIES!

Anyways, have a audition today, huzzah! We'll see how that goes... :P

Think i'm going to quite wow for a week or so (even though i'll be in Cali for the next week or so...)

Just seems like the right idea

I'm going to be one of those cool people that doens't use correct puncuation and jsut makes a line break, like so
but that doesn't work here, or does it?

*DOAH* I used puncuation... oh well, i'm done now.

And I are "LE GUILTY!"

(Note: all "LE XXXXX" must be read with a french accent.